A constant wave of tension
On top of broken trust
The lessons that you taught me
I learn were never true
Now I find myself in question
They point the finger at me again

This room will never ever be innocent. Frankly speaking, Alex wasn’t sure if she would ever be able to overstep his doorstep again. She wasn’t sure, she if she could ever see him again. The girl felt sick, she was trying hard to take breaths, but it didn’t seem to work. He didn’t move. Appreciate it. ‘cause if he did, she would completely lose control of herself. She was staring at him, trying to convince herself it was the same person she used to know. He had done it thousand times before, he’ll do it a thousand more. So what’s the deal? The deal is that he startled her. He should have told her from the very beginning. She needed to know the whole truth. If she saw him doing it from the start, if he showed her, she wouldn’t feel so puzzled and amused right now.
Lexie was listening to him, catching every single sound he made – yeah, he sounded like that guy, Adam. The one she knew and loved. No, didn’t know, just loved.
- I need to get out of here, - she murmured, rushing towards the door, running down the stairs. She heard Adam raped out an oath and his steps, chasing her. She kept on running, as fast as she could, crashing in passers-by, splashing water under her feet. Water. Puddles. When the hell did it start to rain? When did it stop? The ground was slippery, she was close to falling down every two seconds. She kept moving though, her lungs hurt, her eyes filling with water. Suddenly she remembered the day she was running away from the Wendigo – Adam’s arms were the only shelter for her back then. Not any more. Right now she hardly touched the ground, trying to leave him behind. His steps got louder and louder as he was gettin’ inevitably closer to her. Of course he was, he had always been stronger and faster and tougher than her. Sooner or later he’ll make her stop. She turned left, then right, then left once more and suddenly stopped. It was a deadlock. Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide. Point of no return. Damn.
She glanced at the grille in front of her – it was made of metal net, surrounding a school or something like that. There were some other buildings on the right and on the left sides of the road – she was caught. She heard Brown’s steps coming and started to climb. She had never done sports – she knew how to kick and run fast and that had always been enough. Till today. She was trying to overcome this damn fence, but she couldn’t. Her hands hurt – she looked at her fingers and saw blood. She didn’t expect to see it – especially considering that pretty battlefield at Adam’s place – and felt out of breath, letting the metal net out, unclenching her fingers. For a moment, just one moment, she felt she was falling down. She expected the ground to hit her body, head, she imagined herself being a bunch of skin, meat and bones lying on the ground. Sounds familiar, doesn’t it? “That’s it”, -   she thought, closing her eyes.
She was wrong, though. She didn’t touch the ground, didn’t feel the smash. When opened her eyes in misunderstanding, she saw him – unfamiliar lines of his face, eyes, examining her. Adam’s brand new face just above hers. His arms locked around her waist. He didn’t let her fall. He came just in time. He saved her life. What, again?
- Let me out, - Alex whispered, feeling pressure inside her throat she couldn’t explain. She felt uncomfortable in his arms and, at the same time, wanted to feel his touch. Wanted to make sure he was the same. Wanted to convince herself it was a natural thing – to change skin this way. But it wasn’t. There was nothing normal or natural about that at all. That’s why he had to let her go. Adam let her feet feel the ground and set her free, making her promise first to listen to him. She had nothing left but give her word. She did. Stepping back, away from him again.
- Thanks for… saving my life. Again. You needn’t  do this, you know. I was ready to die.
That was true. 
- I was ready to die, but not… to see what I saw. You have never told me it is… what it is. I know who you are, and I know it’s not your fault, and I know you hate this as much as I do now, I know. I just… I’m not sure I can bear it. I’m not quite sure I can handle it.
She wasn’t sure anyone could.

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind